Creating Sacred WORK Space

One of my greatest spiritual challenges… has been a physical: Constructing an environment in which to create… to imagine… and to work.

I have memory after memory on Facebook that reminds me, my quest for organization and for crafting a space that’s usable for my artistic and witchy aims has been a challenge for over a decade.

This year… I’ve admitted I am a hoarder of treasures… that my dragon-like tendencies MUST be addressed. For months… I’ve wrestled with the anxiety and the frustration of too much stuff for the space I have. What kinda of stuff have I piled into my vast hoard?

Art supplies… trinkets… and seemingly random items which seemed to need a home.

I felt responsible for the items in my hoard – that I must hold them and maintain them because they might otherwise be lost and unloved. Problem was… I was suffocating spiritually and physically I was creating very real obstacles to my ability to bring my ideas to life.

Without physical space… I couldn’t craft… create… and produce the ideas, the spirits, that were screaming to be born!

So… for months… I’ve been pushing through my discomfort – physical and emotional – to work towards realizing a space which I can manifest all the magick sitting dormant in my soul.

I learned to loosen my grip on all of the things. I purged things. I dragged things to a friend’s house to sort through. I found some freedom in this activity instead of the fear of being without what I needed.

How to arrange the room… what furnishings… how much to keep for which projects continued to challenge me.

Then, recently, I awoke on the couch in the living room one morning (because there was no space to sleep in my own room) with a furniture change that would bring alignment to our familial living space by moving another desk into my room. I honestly thought I was crazy to even try… while the idea would fix the common area of our home it certainly would only create more problems in my room.

That day… with motivation I never expected… I moved the furniture despite my fears of wasted time and effort. I moved the desk into my room where I thought it would physically fit… but obstruct my ability to actually get the room in order.

I have a 10′ x 10′ room – 100 square feet – which needs to serve me in multiple ways:

  • Sacred space for meditation / journey work.
  • Multiple altars and shrines for devotional work.
  • Recording studio for audio/ video work.
  • Computer terminal (techno-altar) for accessing the interwebs for my work reading for clients and my work for Keeping Her Keys and The Witches’ Realm.
  • A surface for artistic work.

It was pointed out to me by my fantastic mentor, Cyndi Brannen, that perhaps my priorities were out of whack. Sleep is essential to human functioning and it was last on the list of all the ways I wanted my space to work. Point taken.

I laid claim to a folding cot that the Fam was considering parting with. This would fulfill the requirement for a solo sleeping space without resorting to the couch (even if that occasionally brought epiphanies) AND it wouldn’t take up much space when not in use.

Still there was a small bookshelf and all the witchy supplies to deal with.

Tonight, as I dove back into the space creation project uncertain how I was going to fix it… I realized the small bookshelf would fit on the old desk (picture above).

Finally! All the furniture elements are in place… I can sort through the supplies. I sit, writing this, with the wonderful privilege of nearly having a functional space to create and work in. I’m enjoying discovering the supplies I want to keep… and what else can be released.

It might be a chaotic mess in this moment… yet, the outcome is tangible, believable, and becoming!

I’m so close to the functional multi-faceted sacred space of my dreams! I will push forward and manifest what I need. I’m a witch and my will be done!


It was October… 2015… The name Loki was all around me at festival.  As was the sense that Loki was not appreciated by most… that he wasn’t to be trusted… and certainly not sought out.

 Thursday night, while hula hooping in ritual circle, my grip seemed to be slipping more than usual resulting in my hoop rolling away. I chased it, beginning my dance again. The second or third time this happened, “Dammit, Loki!” was out of my mouth before I realized I was speaking.

“WHAT?! LOKI?!” A quizzical expression… a shrug… I ran after my hoop… and returned to my dance.   That dance turned into an experience with Freyja.  I was confused and not confused by my outburst towards Loki.

Festival ended.  Months passed. I began experiencing occasional trances with visitations / conversations with various Norse deities.  Then, 19 June 2016… Loki showed up. I recognized Loki immediately… Their name filling my mind… pausing, almost asking if I’d listen.  I had an opportunity to dismiss Them.

Instead, I choose to listen.

Deciding to listen.
Image by Couleur from Pixabay

Echoes in my mind.  No visuals, just words.  They spoke of self-denial, self-acceptance, the divine spark, me carrying a piece of Their energy.  Emotionally, I was in a rough place when this conversation began. Struggling with my sexuality, my desire, and my expression of passion.

Looking back, it isn’t surprising Loki choose to initiate conversation at that moment.

The advice I received felt comfortable, it felt right.  It all made sense. Memories and feelings surfaced moving through me like a video playing in fast forward. I remembered expressing my frustration in middle/high school with feeling like a constant contradiction. Feeling like I never quite fit in with others. Thinking that for a girl… I sure did act like a boy.  Reflecting on my ability to solve problems… though often making things more difficult than necessary.

According to Loki, accept Loki… and I accept myself.  As the conversation ended… I felt both certain of doing so… and highly doubtful.  I may have even argued back a bit, questioning… “But… you are a trickster… how do I trust you?!?!”  At the same time, admitting that this was a connection I felt good about.

But… isn’t that how the Devil do?  Doesn’t listening to the Devil seem like a good idea at the time?

Image of a demon of devil - not how I see Loki.
Not how I envision Loki… Image by OpenClipart-Vectors from Pixabay

Fear enveloped me. It took quite some time to realize this fear was rooted in beliefs influenced by Christianity. I hadn’t been raised going to church every Sunday, none-the-less I certainly picked up the dichotomy of good and evil, black and white, right and wrong. Somewhere deep, buried in my subconscious, was the idea that listening to Loki… meant I was listening to THE DEVIL.

While this binary world didn’t seem right, I felt if I didn’t fall in line – maybe, I WAS EVIL, TOO.  A belief that stayed with me… subconsciously informing my reluctance to accept my spiritual “father”.

I struggled and wrestled with my relationship with Loki.

Although, I have been surrounded by people who accepted Loki is the primary deity in my spiritual landscape… I tried to hide from this knowledge.  I allowed and created space for Loki to be hailed at our rituals. I researched and read other’s experiences of Them. I completed a ritual or two honoring Them. I interacted with him while not quite accepting him.

It was like a relationship where one person is afraid to be seen in public with the other, so they meet in secret.  

Loki, isn’t one to be silenced or be kept as a “dirty little secret”. As I began serving as a Council Member of The Witches’ Realm (a Keeping Her Keys Facebook group), I found myself responding to posts about Loki… sharing that They are my “patron” a term that never quite felt right but managed to get the point across.

Now, three years after They set out to explain the importance of my acceptance… I’m being prodded to share this tale… to share my fears… my experiences.  Admitting and accepting the mantle of Follower of Loki, Child of Loki (mayhaps even Priestess of Loki) publicly, still leaves me wondering about my sanity from time to time.

Following Loki… Listening to Loki… in my experience brings the dismantling of beliefs which hold one back.  Walking with Loki is a journey towards fulfilling dreams… doing what makes my soul sing. It’s learning to use my voice again… after being silent for so long.

A bird with open mouth
Me using my voice… Image by fxxu from Pixabay

Learning to Listen

I don’t know about you… but I can be incredibly stubborn – especially when it comes to answering the call of Spirit.  

For many years… there’s been a nagging voice whispering in my ear… invading my thoughts… encouraging me to step into my power… accept the mantle of Witch… share my experiences and my journeys… 

The site… Serendipity Wyrd – my public persona and magickal self – is the answer to that call… the refusal to remain living in fear of the “what ifs”.

I’ve spent my life engaging with emotion… with energy… with inspiration… while simultaneously hiding my gifts and talents… afraid of what others would say… afraid of myself, really.

No more.

I am learning to listen to myself… that whisper of the “true self”, the “higher self.”  I’m not always fantastic at this skill… I’m much more practiced at living by fear.  Yet, everyday, I practice. 

I grow, I strengthen my belief in myself, my desire to create my own way, my manifestation of magick.

This is a journey and a practice that will never end… and has never ended.  Even when this particular physical form ends… my soul shall continue its work.

I tried to ignore the nudge… but eventually… I couldn’t help but listen.